"Crawling in my Skin"

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
                                 -Linkin Park

I think everyone has experienced to some degree Depersonalization disorder, of going through life without really experiencing it. Feeling like an automaton, living life as if we're in a out of body experience.

If you've been an a alcoholic or addict, you might have even been trying to disconnect from the real world to try and cope with the pain and reality of life by using drugs or alcohol.

Sometimes we're not even clear on what it is about life that we don't like, and what we're trying to get away from.  We've got a good job and family, yet we're still disconnected. Other times the cause of the pain is pretty clear.

I can only pray that others that are still crawling in their skin with wounds that will not heal can find a path to a better way.

Those of us in recovery have found a path to relieve our suffering. We're no better then those that are still in pain. But we have found that the support and friendships that we've built through a 12 step program, and/or just seeking our higher power and turning our problems over to him is a better saner way.

Today, If I run across someone that is "crawling in their skin", I can only offer them what I've learned. It's up to them to go from there.