Decay and Chicanery

Bodily decay is gloomy in prospect, but of all human contemplations the most abhorrent is body without mind. -Thomas Jefferson

I read this today in the Big Book, Page 11...

The wars which had been fought, the burnings and chicanery that religious dispute had facilitated, made me sick. I honestly doubted whether, on balance, the religions of mankind had done any good. Judging from what I had seen in Europe and since, the power of God in human affairs was negligible, the Brotherhood of Man a grim jest. If there was a Devil, he seemed the Boss Universal, and he certainly had me.

Most of us Alcoholics liked to sit on our bar stools and fix the world with our grand ideas, on how it should be run. I know I could fix half the worlds problems while I was sitting on the bar stool. While we neglected our duties at home or work. We could also tell you how wronged we had been done by any number of people or government agencies. While spending our money on drink and song, instead of paying our taxes or rent.  

While I was drinking, I didn't want to think about God. I felt guilty for not going along with the religious teachings that were presented to me in my youth. 

It's taken me some time to figure out how to define my higher power. I've been struggling with a definition of God since my teens. 

For my self, for part of my definition of what my higher power is, I try to find the most common place to find God. He is the creator of the universe, as I can't wrap my mind around another concept, that makes sense to me.  God is the defining force for the balance of nature. God, is the power behind physics. Physics, or Gravity, doesn't care about the before or after effect of things moving, it just IS. God just IS. - That's my short version. 

Today, the world might have Decay and Chicanery but I don't have to fix it, drink over it. I can let my Higher Power deal with it. - Thank God. 

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